The Journey

Ahh, the soul. The unseen being that is the main cause of our life for without it, we are mainly existing without living. It is our life's journey to search for who we are and what our purpose in life is. Some may think that there is no purpose, we are just living and others may think they have already found their answers.

I myself have taken a step towards this journey we call life. All those memories of the past haunting me till now and events in the present time have sent me spiralling into a deep abyss where a flickering candle light is all I have to light my way. All around me is darkness and the light I have is barely able to hold the darkness at bay. The darkness is nothing that we know in human form. Nothing seen before by anyone. It is blacker than black, darker than the darkest underground tunnel in the darkest night where no stars and moon or artificial light can be seen

This journey I take is mine alone. No one and nothing can come along with me save the candle that is lighting my way and the hope that I will find my way. Sometimes I pass by what I think is a crossroad and I see other flickering candle lights where I cross paths with another soul searcher on his/her journey. Sometimes we travel together, sometimes we just move on. One thing is certain, whatever we see by the light of our candle is for our own eyes to see and no one else's. Every person sees a different view, a different light. No matter how many may travel along the same path or even walk along beside me, we will never see the same things nor will I see the same image twice.

It is my hope that this journey that I have begun to take is not worthless and the obstacles that are in my way will not blow my candle out for I am not equipped with a match or flint or lighter to relight this candle. Only blind faith and hope feeds the candle and I fear that one day, the fuel may run out. But for now, with the first step I take on this journey, I will rely on hope and the strength (from whatever guardian angels that have held me safe in their arms until I stood up and made my first step), to move forward in this dark abyss. Words and sounds do not exist here. Only feelings, thoughts and emotions. Images of things past, things to come and things that are.

Each person will eventually or may have already begun this journey that I am now starting and I hope that this journey will help me eventually find myself/my soul/spirit and then the darkness will be gone and there will only be light. Then, I can finally rest easily in peace knowing that I have found myself.